I cannot wait for January to end.
Why the hurry? it’s because January is not a good start of the year for me. it was too much stress, too many problems and over load of work. I love to work. It’s just that sometimes i really want to do something that i want to do. Who doesn’t?
So this blog will be “what i really want to do with my life”.
My son just turned 3 last January 22, 2013. We throw him a ninjago theme party with some friends and family who came to celebrate with us. it was not to fancy like the last time. But he had so much fun. the weather wasn’t even cooperating. so we started around 5. the guest started coming when the rain hold it’s pouring for minutes.
Confession 1: i want to be a party planner. but i don’t really like the stress. i like it when people love every little thing in the party. from the cake to the food and the decorations. it has been my passion since i was so little.
Confession 2: I wanted to be an Interior decorator. But, school here in the philippines is just so expensive. i cannot even buy department store clothes for myself because i cannot afford it.
Confession 3: i want to a fashion stylist so bad. But too expensive. again, 20 thousand plus a semester. *sigh*
and i end up taking a low course in my college which i don’t really love but i met new friends and i’m learning to enjoy it.
Maybe, just maybe.. when i will be able to finish school i could start on my dreams. i can start on what i really want. Just maybe. Holding on to that…. but for now… goal is to give my little man a descent and good life. everyday, its a prayer. every parent dreams of that. i am one of them.
I want to bring him to Paris, to islands, to the beach.
For now, let’s stick on the present. I will not be stuck in the present. I will survive this. i will reach my dreams.
how about you? what do you want to become?
Lazy outfit for school.
So far, these are the photos i have. Not really my favorites. Whenever i take photos of myself, i feel it’s the best shots then realize, what was i thinking wearing those.. :/ oh well!
Always the first on my bucket list - Hit the beach.
Where i live in, you only get to see mountains, resorts, it’s only a small town.
My son’s 3rd birthday is coming up and i you guessed it, a beach escapade.
We were given the chance to have vacation last year, a short one but it was all good since we get to go to the beach twice. (confession: it was not really a vacation, but for me; away from work and school it was a vacation.)
It’s just something about the beach that makes me want to go back. The sunset, sunrise, sand, vibes.
(playing: THE BEACH by ALL SAINTS while making this post.)
confession: an all time fave song.
My Pre-Christmas Outfit
Jc Inspired (waited ages for these to arrive)
I always wanted a Jeffrey Campbell inspired Foxy wood. And i LOVE IT! (confession: Waited 2 years – 2 Christmas) to get these. It’s expensive here. Shoes are really expensive if you wanted to be in fashion – not out of fashion. For me, fashion isn’t about getting what is really in, it’s how you wear it. with class, confidence. I’m hoping i could get more with different colors. *wishful thinking*
My Partner in crime. we are the complete opposites. he doesn’t really like to dress up. I just force him to! hee! hee. Well, you really have to look good together. and he trust me on that, which is really nice. Sometimes he would tell me, it’s too awkward, i would say you look so cute!
I wanted to post all my past years outfit so i can compare them all next year. Weather down here is really cold, and i’m being lazy. I guess i should have done my new years resolution. I just feel like i don’t really need it. since, i always fail to do it. haha! That’s me, always breaking the rules. well, not really.
So i will try to post all my favorite outfits in a post, then you tell me. This year, i’m experimenting on classy-chic style. I just feel too old to wear edgy, girly-girl outfits. so let’s see.
Confession 1 I don’t really realize things directly until someone or something make me realize it. I would have to give time to think about it, to analyze it, to feel it, and then to finally absorb it.
The last day of December Twenty twelve. we spent it on a road trip, a short one. Seeing the smile in this little mans face – priceless. The world end was an epic fail. If it really happen, i wasn’t ready for it.
(Second confession of the year) Why? 2 years and almost 3 i haven’t really spent time with son. I am always at work, most of the time in the computer or at class. Or when i’m at home i clean. i have to keep the house clean.
(confession #3) i am a neat freak. An OC. I have googled the calculations on seconds and hours each day of the year, sadly i only spent it with my son, mostly haft of it.
I want to watch my baby grow. to watch him sleep at night, to be there when he falls down on his knees because he is being clumsy. to hug him when he is not in a good mood. to kiss him every morning before going to work. to check up on him whenever i can. to see him laugh, cry and experience.
My Boys; Daddy Ken & Zachary
A year end photo of me.
We will experience new things together. I will be there always.
going back to the year ender, It didn’t really strike me until i saw the photos. It was a very beautiful afternoon to spent time with my little family. a family that i call own. a family that loves me wholly and uniquely. A family that understands me.
Sometimes you really just have to make a short stop and realize, LIFE is beautiful if you will just experience it. Take time to breathe, to live, to laugh, to cry, to be amaze.
I will spend time with my son. we will experience together. Me, Ken and our Baby. We will build memories together.